Is that even a word? That’s not a word…

…but the idea of it is definitely what I’ve been feeling lately — a certain sadness and longing of a not-quite long ago and near-yet-far away. To cope, I’ve been listening to a lot of late-1990’s/early-2000’s indie music and thinking about LiveJournal and missing going to the movies, y’know? Those sorts of things.


It’s been a while since I’ve written anything, here or anywhere else, but shit… can you blame me? I’ve only just really started to feel like doing normal-ish stuff (and by that, I just mean having the bandwidth to read a book or watch a show that’s not [completely] mindless; I don’t mean going out in public without a face mask or demonstrating with a group of people outside of the governor’s mansion).

Movies with a Friend

Noted good friend Jesse really did a wonderful job this past month getting us together virtually to watch a movie (we’re taking a break from Bond to go through our Top 10 Favorite Movies of the Past Decade instead) and then Zoom about it.

Zoom’s a verb now, by the way.

To prepare for his #10, The Raid 2 (2014), He thought it might be necessary for me to watch the first one, The Raid: Redemption (2011), and so we did.

Since we’re alternating each other’s lists, we then watched my #10, Midsommar (2019), but since it only just came out last year, we watched the Apple iTunes Exclusive Director’s Cut(!) which is about 30 minutes longer. I don’t want to speak on his behalf, but I think we both appreciated the extended look into the traditions of this cult…ure. Yeah, that’s it. Culture.

Then on to The Raid 2. And for The Raid 2, I WILL speak on his behalf. I told him that I think I preferred the first Raid to the second, and he thought that I might and knew precisely why. The Raid has these crazy-good action set pieces that take place in these intimate environments (Jesse says “claustrophobic”). The Raid 2 is bigger and more bombastic, and a few of the action sequences are also extremely great, but it’s overall less focused. The first is the perfect vanilla malt, and the second is one of those milkshakes that has chunks of cookies and candy blended in and half a slice of pie sticking out of it.

We go back to my list next and will watch my #9, Nightcrawler (2014), sometime this holiday weekend. (Happy Memorial Day!)

I am barely reading…

(That’s to the tune of Duncan Sheik’s 1996 smash hit, “Barely Breathing,” by the way.)

I’m still only about 12% through A People’s History of the United States. Maybe I’ll get back to it when I’m not too depressed by how slow progress seems to take around these parts, or by how far things seemed to have backslid during this administration, but I don’t know that that will be any time soon.

Something I thought might be a good read during these unprecedented times are the writings of a Stoic, Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. About 30% through and he’s written lovingly about how the cracks in the crust might go against the baker’s want/intent, but how it actually makes the bread more appealing/desirable. 2000 years later and bread is still what anyone seems to be talking about.


I started writing this a few days ago. At the time, I thought I had more I wanted to get off my chest, but now that it’s a few days later, I think I’m fine just sharing the above.

In the heyday of LiveJournal, I was content with writing shorter thoughts. I suppose the likes of Twitter and Mastodon have taken its place, but I miss a place that felt more like a home I was inviting friends into and less like meeting up at the playground.

Anyway, here’s to hoping for more of the former and less of the latter in the future!

Current Mood: Nostalgiacholic
Listening To: Bright Eyes – June on the West Coast (Apple Music | Spotify | YouTube)

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